Sunday, November 05, 2006
my relationship with M is really complicated now. Really not sure wat is my next step. misery is the only word i can describe. Falling in love is a splendid thing but once u are falling out of love is like asphyxiate. Im in the middle of both so can u feel my misery?? Maybe you guys do not understand at all..... I lost my favourite watch at home today. I usually place it on the table or the coffee table in the living room but today i cant find it on both the tables. MY heart is like cracking into pieces because the watch was a gift from him 3yrs back. The lost of this watch really makes me think that our relationship has come to the end. Maybe i think too much again....My company D n D has finally end (1 wk ago). The D n D food is so so only maybe because i didnt get to eat some of the dishes. Anyway i got my tarot card reading that night. The lady said that im trap in this relationship and i cant do anything to get out of this trap. Which i think is really true. She ask me to pursue whatever i wanna do in life at this point of time and think of other things beside improving this relationship. I will be free from this trap after a few mths. Whether this kind of freedom is good or bad she didnt say at all... But she said this relationship as per normal...Everytime after meeting him we will have a small chat and this issue is always the topic. Im getting sick doubting his feelings and by the end of the day when he went home i will think through again and i always nv fail to cry. I really hope it end with a happy ending after 6 yrs together.
BLOGGED! @ {Sunday, November 05, 2006}
